No Good at Goodbyes

I'm no good at goodbyes. I like treating them all more like "see you later" even if I know some of them I won't be seeing again anytime soon. About half of the people that I have grown to know and love in San Francisco will not be back next year, as their paths have pointed them towards some other adventure. I would rather have them with me, for purely selfish reasons of course, but I know they're going to be doing amazing things and I wish them luck. But the part that I have to keep focusing on is that I get to return to this great city once again in August, and that all of the people that I've met really will keep in touch this summer. Even if I miss their hugs, I still have them to talk to. 


I've been home just over a week now. I miss my city. We went back today and I miss it so much. I miss the life I've started to create for myself over there. I've been confirmed for my apartment next year with my own room, and now I'm itching to get back there and set up the apartment and get a job there which I can carry throughout the school year. But I know that there are certain parts of this, the other home, that I have missed and enjoyed returning to. It's been amazing to get back to my sister. There really is nothing like it when you can look at a person and just know what they're thinking, or when you don't even have to look at them... Yea I missed her. And no person on Earth yet has been as sweet as my puppy. She missed me too & follows me everywhere. My parents are a riot, even when they're testing my patience. Good to be home.

Now if I could just get hired..

To-do List for Summer:

• Force my way off the waitlist for the summer morning class at the community college.
• Get a Job. Seriously.
• Go to a Giants game. I've still never been.
• Gain some color. I'm the palest person I know.
• Read read read. 
• Finally get around to watching American Graffiti and other classics I haven't seen.
• Take off somewhere with some friends for a couple days.
• Learn to knit, because cool people knit.
• Keep collecting recipes and cook more. I have a kitchen now, and it's my intention to use it.
• Write, sketch, make movies, stay fit, do it all.

Summer is here folks. Feels good.

Young at Heart

Fairy tales can come true, it can happen to you

If you're young at heart

For it's hard, you will find, to be narrow of mind

If you're young at heart

You can go to extremes with impossible schemes

You can laugh when your dreams fall apart at the seams

And life gets more exciting with each passing day

And love is either in your heart or on it's way

Don't you know that it's worth every treasure on earth

To be young at heart

For as rich as you are it's much better by far

To be young at heart

And if you should survive to 105

Look at all you'll derive out of being alive

Then here is the best part, you have a head start

If you are among the very young at heart

--Frank Sinatra, "Young at Heart"

I love this song. And every time I listen to it I see happy people in Disneyland in slow motion sequences. I am still one of the young at heart.

Let's Support Lily!

This wonderful young lady is my friend, Lily.

I recently got an e-mail from my friend Lily, and she needs our help. She has chosen to be a part of the AIDS Lifecycle event, where thousands of people come together to bicycle from San Francisco to Los Angeles and raise awareness and money for AIDS. To see and hear more about the event you can watch this video, or visit the website to which I have a link to below. Lily is also a student living in the city and could use all the help she can get. She only has 25 more days to raise close to a thousand dollars in order to participate. This would really mean the world to her. Through her training and all her fundraisers she needs our help for this last push. Please give anything you can, and let me know if you donate so we both can send you a thank you!


Instructions to donate:1. Go to the AIDSlifecycle website.
2. Click the blue "Donate" button at the top of the page
3. Scroll down and select "Search for Participant" and under first name put "Lily" last name "Koch" and hit search
4. Select Lily
5. Click the "Donate to support Lily" button above the thermometer!


Thank you for reading.

Happy Mother's Day

To a mom who would do anything for me, and I would do anything for. 

Lyrics to Live By

"But if you wait too long,
Keep telling yourself

That moment has already passed,

You might miss that song,

You may never meet that girl,

Then you blink, oh!

And the night is over too fast.

Well don't you want it to last?"
-"Dark Trance" by Free Energy

My sister came to visit me this last weekend. It was so good to spend time with her and show her around, and I know she enjoyed getting out of town and seeing parts of the city she hadn't ventured to before. I had missed her a lot, and even now I wish she was still around. This weekend flew by, but it was worth every minute.. and every penny. She's the only sister I've got and I love her to death and would do anything for her.

That being said, with the last weeks of the school year upon me, I'm realizing all the things I still want to do before the year ends and what little time I have to do them. I'm going to miss this city so much. It was good to be here, it has treated me well, and I'm so excited to see what next year holds.. but I won't write off this year just yet. It will be over too fast, and yes I want it to last.