I Really Don't Know Anything

Is it so wrong that I miss you? I'm told it is. But I don't think so. I miss you. It's hard to just let go, but I can't decide if it's worse holding on. You aren't here anymore.. and somehow I have this sinking feeling that you're gone for good. But I don't know. All I know is that I miss you. If I knew anything about anything I would know what to do now. Words to say or what to do. I wish there was a way I could know. Or a way I could just have you back here with me, talking like you never left. But I don't really know anything about anything.

I went to a concert tonight. Fantastic music, but in every lyric I saw your face. I've been keeping busy because I'm told that's what's best.. but most of all, when it's all said and done, I just wish my phone would glow with your name and I could talk to you about your day and your thoughts. I miss YOU, and who you are, and who you pushed me to be, without even trying.

You Make a Mess of Me Here

Look at me dreaming of you

All I could hope is to have you

To have you walking with me

Laughing so in love, we two

Almost drunkenly

I did imbibe of this

Fantasy of you and me

Was I a fool to think?

The way you looked at me

I swear you did

But you looked away too quick

Was I a fool, was I a fool to think

That you would take me home

As if I was yours

Was I a fool to think at all?

I've grown tired of love

You are the trouble with me

I watch you walk right by

I smile, you do not notice me

Treat me recklessly

All you do is toss me pennies out

But the silence in me is screaming

Won't you come and get me?

Was I a fool to think?

The way you looked at me

I swear you did

But you looked away too quick

Was I a fool, was I a fool to think

That you would take me home

As if I was yours

Was I a fool to think at all?

You make a mess of me here

I dance a thousand steps for you

If you say yes to me

I'll be whatever gets you through

You make a mess of me here (was I a fool?)

I dance a thousand steps for you (was I a fool?)

Was I a fool, was I a fool to think?

Am I a fool, am I a fool for you?

"Fool to Think" Dave Matthews Band

You are just teasing me now.. I wish you wouldn't. I wish I knew what you were thinking, but you won't tell me. You're just out of my reach now, and, even though I know this, I want to reach out and touch you. How pathetic. I wish I could start over.. back to the beginning and make it all right, because frankly the rest of this sucks. But I can't change how this went, once again powerless to your will, as it always has been with every form of you. Was I a fool?

It's been too long since I have really written. I need it now more than ever. I'm back in San Francisco, and I feel winds of change..