Cheater

Yesterday I cheated on my absolutely-no-sweets diet. It's ok to be disappointed in me, I am disappointed in me. Because not only did I cheat on the diet that betters me as a person, but I cheated with lemon meringue pie. Not something delicious like chocolate, I did it with lemon meringue. I feel like if this was a relationship situation it would be like me and chocolate decided to take a break because things were getting out of hand, and then I went out and had sex with lemon meringue, who doesn't even mean anything to me!! But it doesn't matter, because I still cheated.

So why did I do it then? As it turns out, I have a fairly acceptable excuse. For the last week my jaw has been in severe pain due, in part, to a condition I've had my whole life. It makes it really hard to eat, talk, and other things that should be normal. This is, of course, when things go wrong. Anyway, things had been going severely wrong causing me to be popping pills like Dr. Gregory House. Our dining hall had virtually nothing soft to eat and as I sat, hungry and disappointed, I pondered having pie out loud. And within 2 minutes my roommate brought me some and told me I just needed to eat. I love her. I hate that I cheated, but it was necessary. And maybe it's better that it was only lemon meringue.

Today I went to my hometown briefly to have my shit taken care of, so I feel significantly better. So no more excuses..hopefully. Except for Valentine's day which will end with copious amounts of chocolate.

Add Insult to Injury

You know that even after I've intentionally eaten a full meal before going to the mall so that I would not eat mall food, the smell of Boudin or Mrs. Fields makes me believe I'm famished and should eat. It's like crazy witchcraft. Not ok. And all the valentine's day chocolates are just adding insult to injury. I feel like I look at them and they say "You're off sweets! You can't touch me... and you're single anyway." Ouch Valentine's Day chocolates, that was harsh. I'm thinking of cheating on Valentines day and having something chocolate at the end of the day. I wanted to be hard-core about this, but that's one day that requires something chocolate. Don't judge me.